my own writing.

and there she was, laying there like all hope was lost.
i wanted to say something, do something to make her better.
i wanted her to take my hand so i could lead her from this awful place.

and there he was, with his clean shaven face and old university sweatshirt.
he looked hurt so see me so hurt, and i just wanted to make it better.
i wanted to take his hand and run away from this terrible place.

you see, love has a funny way of doing things.
sometimes words aren't spoken, nothing at all is said.
sometimes just that arm reaching out, sometimes just taking someone's hand.
sometimes the offer, and sometimes the acceptance.

those moments of love and compassion,
that's what really saves us.
i suppose they were right when they said
"all we need is love".

when she took my hand it was a mixture of relief and joy.
there was no fear of what was to come.
it was like i knew from every part of me,
that as long as we had each other we couldn't fail.

i think i got to a point where i just knew inside of me
that what was best was to take his hand.
for some reason i trusted him.

and so i felt my soft hand slide gently into his,
and as his fingers wrapped around mine i felt such relief.

i knew that if i didn't take his hand i would regret it.
or, at the very least, i would wonder every day
how different things would be-
how different i would be if i had said no.
-one clip from a book i'm writing, split up in between some pictures i found. let me know what you think?

its short; but i'm still out of town.

i think everyone wants to be beautiful and loved.

a tragedy

I'm asking everyone on here to pray to your God (or gods).

My brother in law got in a really bad accident at work, and ended up not breathing for who knows how long.  A nearby neighbor finally found him, rushed him to the hospital; where he is still.  He's in ICU.  He's not breathing on his own, and the lack of oxygen caused swelling around the entire brain.  He hasn't woken up yet.  My sister and her husband (the one who's in the hospital) have a 4 month old daughter.  This is something that she shouldn't have to go through, and we keep praying that he wakes up.  They're putting him through what's called an ICE procedure where they give him an ice bath basically and cool his body temp down to about 35 degrees.  Then they warm it up again.  It should relaxen the muscles, causing the swelling in the brain to go down.  This is our only hope for survival.

There are some good things.  When my sister (his wife) goes in to talk to him, or touch his hand you can see on the monitor that he's trying to respond.  He'll shiver a lot more, or maybe twitch a finger.  Like he's trying to respond somehow.  He can hear us.  His vital signs are strong, and he's a healthy man.  We're just praying that by the grace of God he pulls through this.  Thank you.

a survey!

et's start out blunt, have you had sex in the last 12 hours?
yes. but i'm married-its ok.

What are your plans for tomorrow?
more cleaning and laundry, then work from 1-9:30

Are you wearing something that belongs to someone else?
nope!

Does anything hurt on you?
my neck and shoulders. i've probably been at the computer too long.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
i hope so.

Did you have a good day today?
mostly, yes. i love days off.

Is there a girl that knows everything about you?
my sisters.

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a D?
i've only kissed one man; my  husband.

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
never. but i took lessons in high school.

What's running through your mind right now?
i should go sit with him and fold laundry and watch the movie. quality time is good. but i feel like writing and being creative...

Does it bother you when people respond to you with one word?
sometimes, yes. it just seems rude.

Where is your cell phone?
in front of me.

Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
most likely.

Do you like myspace?
i'll take my facebook and blogger.

What shoes did you wear today?
my new black tennis shoes that i bought for work. and my slippers.

What color shirt are you wearing?
its off-white.

What color are your pants/shorts?
they're grey jeans.

Do you like glitter?
not at all. its messy and tacky.

Are you currently wearing a shirt with long or short sleeves?
its a tank top.

Do you regret anything you've done this year so far?
i try not to regret anything, but to turn it around and learn from it.

What usually wakes you up in the morning?
my alarm or the dog.

Is there anyone you'd like to apologize to?
i did nothing wrong-he did.

Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
my mom and my husband.

Whats the closest thing to you that's liquid?
water. its all i keep in the house anymore.

Are your toe nails painted pink?
haha no.

Are you wearing short shorts?
waaay too cold for shorts.

Ever had a girl best friend?
yes.

Do you straighten your hair often?
my hair is naturally VERY straight.

Does anyone hate you?
i know a few people. but really, i gave up caring.

Do you like messages or comments better?
comments-but either work.

What were you doing an hour ago?
possibly in target.

If you could seek revenge on someone would you?
i don't do revenge. i let God handle it. nerd much?

Are you excited for Saturday?
my hubby and i both have saturday off. so sure!

What are you listening to right now?
some movie behind me.

Are you one of those people who are always cold?
very much so. its kind of scary actually.

Last thing that you said out loud?
who knows... i was probably talking to the dog.

Do you think this year will be better than the last?
oh it already is.

Do you like the rain?
if its summer rain, yes. otherwise its cold.

What is the most exciting place you have been to this year?
vegas baby!

Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
my sister bought it for my birthday.

Who was the last person you were rude to? Did you have a good reason?
a guy at work-and YES.

You caught your best friend smoking weed in the school bathroom.
why is my best friend in school again?

Who was the first person you talked to today?
oh my husband, for sure. we wake up next to each other. =D

If someone is doing something that pisses you off, do you tell them?
typically, yes. although it depends on the person.

Explain in detail exactly what you were doing four hours ago:
i was either in the mall, walmart, or target... probably buying a broom.

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
kissed my husband and petted the dog.

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
i love him...

How many people are you texting right now?
zero. i'm so boring.

Without naming names, say one thing to someone?
i dont know if you ever think of me or not, and i don't know whether to be happy or sad about it. i wanted you out, and now i wonder how you're doing. i want to fix you, change you, make you into the person i know you can be. but its not my job anymore-i gave up that right and you let me walk away. and now i'm happy. finally, really happy. i hope you are too...

Do you remember who you liked this time three months ago?
the same guy i like now.

Does your phone have to be charged every day?
it depends on how often i use it.

When's the last time you were surprised?
this afternoon. my husband walked in after work, and i didn't realize it was that late already.

kisses and flowers.

i put flowers in the post because i wanted to portray the happiness and simpleness of love. kissing doesn't create love, i think it is a symbol and an act of love.  take this post, whether single or taken, and suck the happiness from it.  dance today. smile today.  i want to make happiness a fad again.


you've made me try so many new things.
i'm brave now, because of you.



its so beautiful, what we have. and so incredibly rare.
i just want to prove everyone wrong and make this work.



somehow, even in my worst moments,
you make me so incredibly happy.



you make me weak at the knees with just a glance.

sometimes scary, always intense,
this love is everything i've been waiting for.



you're my perfect half-the side i've always needed.



what makes me beautiful is you.

and when i said you make my heart flutter, i wasn't lying.

i feel like i'm living in a fairytale.
you make me seem like a princess.
and you are most definitely my prince.



somehow no matter where you are, or where i am
i always know that we're meant to be.

i can't help but smile at just the thought of you next to me.



i don't know how it happened, or when it started
but somewhere along the way, i fell completely in love.

this means forever, it means always, thick and thin.
good and bad, happy and crying. i know you wont break your promise.

make me believe that you'll stay with me.



our passion pushes boundaries, and goes beyond everything.

you're the sun in the sky and the stars dangling behind.

i believe i'll always be this happy if you'll always be mine.

something tells me my heart is long gone now.



i've never felt so beautiful as when i'm in your arms.

this is perfection for me. all the flaws, all the anger,
all the hurt i've left behind. you erased the worst of me.

another kiss, another moment where i'm fine.

take me to a place where its just us and our love.



i can't take back what i've done before, or who.
but i can promise that the future will just be the two of us.
 
we were young and maybe naive,
but what we had we still have.
nothing can stop that. not even youth.

tell me that i'm beautiful one more time,
it makes my heart flutter every time you look at me.